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[18 Aug 2005|11:57am] |
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I can feel it in the air "Beanie Siegal" |
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So I was talking to Kelz last night and we're thinking of combining our parties or birthdays together a weekend in September at club WET in chicago. I havn't been there yet but I looked at the website and it looks tight...I just think that's something we could do and since LAST YEAR my birthday sucked(cept seeing all of you guys afterwards at Stephs). Here you guys check out the site and let Kelz and I know. http://www.wetchicago.com/
P.s. But I think we should all go it will be good for all of us to have a reunion! Tell erryone...and hit Kelz and I up...
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[18 Aug 2005|11:44am] |
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I finally have a day off today..it's kind of weird tho it feels like Saturday to me..I'm never off on a weekday. Anyways...today I think I am gonna go and try and find something to wear for the wedding Saturday. I hope it's gonna be fun. I mean the girl Stephanie I work with is a lot of fun but her husband's family is very conservative so I hope it's not gonna be that way. Other than that I have to say KEL it was good to finally talk to you yesterday..thanks for understanding what I am going thru. I still feel the same way if people have shit to say they need to go to that person and I TRUST NOBODY! Except my friends..u know who you are. I guess the next time I will update will be after the wedding...ttys*
p.s. Miss L* sorry I havn't been on myspace that much I will comment soon..and I luv reading all ur blogs!
Countdown to Daveon's birthday ya'll 1 day..so holla and send him some birthday wishes ok!!!
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[14 Aug 2005|10:37pm] |
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Your Birthdate: September 11 |
Your birth on the 11th day of the month makes you something of a dreamer and an idealist.
You work well with people because you know how to use persuasion rather than force.
There is a strong spiritual side to your nature, and you may have intuitive qualities inherent in your make up, too.
You are very aware and sensitive, though often temperamental.
Although you have a good mind and you are very analytical, you may not be comfortable in the business world.
You are definitely creative and this influence tends to make you more of a dreamer than a doer. |
| Your Hawaiian Name is: | 
Alana Lana |
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| I'm back... |
[14 Aug 2005|09:56pm] |
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Oh how nice it is to finally update my journal. I feel so bad not updating but I just seriously don't have the time. And my computer at home is a pos! I can't wait to get a new one. But I'm not meaning to neglect you guys...it just has been hard finding a time to update. I need to because these was a way for me to let go and vent..it helps and it helps me at the same time to update you all on what's been going on with me. I need to spend time on here again like I do with myspace now. I'm such a myspace whore it's sick. LOL* Anyways..so much has happened I don't even know where to begin....but I'll just give you an overview.
I've been working lots...U all remember I have a million jobs well 4 well as of last week it's down to 3. I talked with one of my office's and we've decided that it was best for me to leave now. I really was trying to hang on to that job because of the people and it's not a bad thing but it was just too much for me out of my time and it wasn't worth it especially with gas prices right now. (WTF up with that anyways...) But now I'm working the 3 but this fall I will be down to 2 since school is starting in a few weeks. I'm not excited about that..but I just want to finish! I guess that's about it with work..it's work..I enjoy the kids...they're a riot..but I also enjoy being an MA now cuz I am getting a lot of experience for my profession. I love what I do. I'm so happy I know what I want to do with my life now. I'm excited I get to learn how to draw blood soon...who gets excited about that..I know I'm a dork.
Other than work I lead a boring life here lol. I don't go out much because in Michigan it's all the same things to do..and I'm sick of it BORING LOL. I'm still trying to lose more weight. My friends wedding is at the end of Sept. and I need to lose a few pounds to be able to sit in my dress lol. I'm not worried but I just can't wait till that day. What else... I have been spending a lot of time with Delon which has been good because I think it's good for us. He's really a great guy and I can't wait for you guys to meet him. But that's my life for now here lol.
Recently Auntie Junie just got admitted to the hospital I told most of you..but keep her in your prayers she is doing so much better. She's on a regular floor now and not on CCU or ICU. But we need her to be 100%. But after her surgery she should be ok... It's been hard...she's like a mother to me..and I still have a hard time dealing with death..and I don't know what I would have done if we lost her and it was close. I still have a hard time dealing with my grandparents being gone. I'm just thankful that she is ok..and that I have the family I have. (Bev and Sa...I luv u and I'm always here for u!)
It was good to talk to a few of you guys the other night..(Steph and Em and the rest of you...) It's just good to know that there are friends that are behind you no matter what. I'm so thankful to have you all in my life and know that you're there. I'm just sick of shady people. You just find out who your true friends are. The other day I found out some shady shit that people have been saying about me..and these people are supposed to be my friends. Well I just know who my true friends are because if you are my friend you wouldn't talk shit behind your friends back. I just know now that I don't trust anybody. I've always had trust issues but more so do I now. Just a piece of advice watch out what you say and who you say things too..and if you have an opinion talk to that person don't say it behind their back. And you should always go to that person and find out what's going on before assuming. I don't think I'm itimidating and I hope if anybody had a problem I hope they feel comfortable enough to talk to me. I mean I don't fuckin bite..well depends ;o) lol...just kidding. I'm not gonna mention names but these people I trusted but now I know that I need to be careful and not trust so easily. I just hate people that need to start and feed on drama. That's so stupid and immature. And some people need to mind their own business and let me live my life...and that's all I have to say bout that..
I don't mean to end it on a negative note but that just bothered me. I hope that I get to come out to Chi soon hopefully to celebrate some of ur birthdays or mine(since my fam will be in Alaska and Vancouver then)...unfortunatly I'm not really looking fwd to it. I am getting so old!!!! Well I am gonna go I'm so tired and I gotta get up early to work..sorry this is a long entry. I hope you all are doing well and I will try and update when I can. Thinkin of all of you!!!!
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[13 Aug 2005|04:31pm] |
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Cater 2 u...Destiny's Child |
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Hey you guys...... lol (think goonies) YES EVERYONE MAMA IS ALIVE!!
Well of course I tried to update last night on LJ after I talked to some of you and it wouldn't let me. And being that I have a crazy life I don't have time to update today...I will update tomorrow and fill you all in on what's been goin on with me. I am happy I got to talk with some of you yesterday...Steph and Emma...I miss u guys...K u all will hear from me soon!
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[10 Jun 2005|08:29am] |
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The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
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[24 May 2005|11:22pm] |
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I swear my life has taken me hostage lol...I said I would update and here I am again late. I need to quit being such a myspace junkie. And I think u all will agree. I promise to update soon. I can't wait to see u all... :O)
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[22 May 2005|11:22pm] |
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How could you...Mario |
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I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I have so much to update but I'm so tired I'll have to fill ya'll in the next entry. It's been one hell of a weekend I will add at that. I'm sorry that I've been neglecting my journal. I hope ya'll forgive Me!!! But it's been pretty crazy for me. I am now working 4 jobs..and still the money isn't catching up yet? And I wake up this morning and I have hives? I think that means that tattoo I've been wanting to get..should say STRESSED. I need a fuckin vacation...how bout ya'll. And to top it off...I miss all of you. I just got done catching up...and got choked up. But only cuz I miss you all dearly ;o)....well I am off to bed. I actually don't have to get up early so I'm sleepin in..finally!!! I promise to update more...I hope all is well with you.
p.s. I don't know if any of you watch Desperate Housewives..but OMG it was freakin good tonight for the season finale. BUT I'M pissed cuz I wanna know what happens now!!! Kurra I swear Zach on the show is Eric... ;o)
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[12 May 2005|10:55am] |
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Your Birthdate: September 11 |
Your birth on the 11th day of the month makes you something of a dreamer and an idealist.
You work well with people because you know how to use persuasion rather than force.
There is a strong spiritual side to your nature, and you may have intuitive qualities inherent in your make up, too.
You are very aware and sensitive, though often temperamental.
Although you have a good mind and you are very analytical, you may not be comfortable in the business world.
You are definitely creative and this influence tends to make you more of a dreamer than a doer. |
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[25 Apr 2005|09:40pm] |
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Because of you Kelly Clarkson |
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[19 Apr 2005|09:42am] |
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#1 Spot Luda... |
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[08 Feb 2005|07:02pm] |
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I need you now...more than words can say...? I dont' know who sings it! |
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"Love is the tact of every good,
The only warmth,
the only peace."
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[07 Feb 2005|10:53am] |
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IF YOU CANT GET SOMEBODY OUT OF YOUR HEAD CHANCES ARE THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE THERE....
Someone posted that on the bulletin in myspace. Sigh...so freakin true..it sucks! I have to tell you all about my weekend..but I gotta update on that l8ta cuz I gotta get Lauren ready..I'll be back...
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Officially missing you*Tamia* |
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"If you are in love...that's about the best thing that can happen to
anyone. Don't let anyone make it small or light to you." --John
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How true is that....**SIGH**
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| I love you so very much <3 awww u guys have to read this* |
[31 Jan 2005|08:28am] |
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So its 1:15 in the morning, you're obsessively thinking about that 'special person' again. You can't help but wonder if they're thinking about you. You decide to call them up to see if they are, but they don't answer the phone. You start to wonder, maybe they're with someone else or they fell asleep; but you're aching to talk to them. You decide to go and try to sleep, you turn on your radio and close your eyes, but as you're tossing and turning you secretly wish they would call your cell phone so you could pick it up in a heartbeat and tell them how much you miss them. While you're listening to the radio, the song that has a special meaning to you and him/her comes on. You have that longing feeling in your body again and you begin to reminice about your special moments that you guys shared from three years ago to last night, all your inside jokes. Then your thoughts get deeper, you think of the future; first with him/her in it, then you try to picture your life without them, no matter how hard you try they're still there. At that moment you realize you love them. He/She doesn't know, you aren't sure if you should tell them, you're unaware of their reaction or what impact it would make on the future of the relationship. What do you do? Do you tell them your true feelings? Or do you hide them forever?
Well its a week later, you get a call on your cell phone from a number you dont recognize. You dont answer it on account you dont know who it is. They leave you a message, you ignore it because you have to get to class. At the end of the school day you're outside walking to your car and you remember that you got a message. You dial your voicemail and you're listening to this unfamiliar voice telling you about your nightmare that has come true. The one you cared about most is gone. So many thoughts come rushing through your head. You wished you had told them that you loved them, you wish that you would have cherished your time together more, you wish so many things that wont ever come true or happen. You start crying in the middle of the parking lot your legs suddenly numb and you walk to the curb so you can take a seat so you dont collapse. Your thoughts start settling down and you cant believe they're gone. You just want them in your arms so bad at the moment. You try calling theyre cell phone but it connects directly to their voicemail. You have to face it... they're gone. Now you have to picture your life without them cause theres no way they'll be in your future anymore.
If you have true feelings for someone, tell them. You never know when its too late and you'll never know if they feel the same way if you dont tell them.
Someone sent me this on myspace...how true is this..I was thinking of someone last night* hope you guys liked it. Mel
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[29 Jan 2005|11:02pm] |
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the song by Amel Larrieux...For real I think it's called |
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Your 80s Theme Song: |
Your 80s Theme Song is Chains of Love by Erasure |
I like Erasure but it reminds me of my cousin Elaine..she was obsessed with them lol. But I like my other result I got earlier it's on my myspace page and it was Paula Straight up...
Oh I so wish*
the scary thing is for once I actually am wearing red
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[29 Jan 2005|10:50pm] |
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At home chillin tonight..I guess it's always good to chill on a Saturday night except tonight I just want to go out and drink and have fun. I wish you all were here. Everyone here is either pregnant which is cool or they are working. Hey I understand you gotta do what you gotta do...but still I"M BORED lol. Today is my daddy's birthday I can't believe Mario is 55 already. He's getting old fo sho....we just got back from eating at Outback. YUM* Well I hope you guys are having fun at your Luau I wish I was there! I hope I get some drunk calls tonight that will amuse me lol.
P.s. Kel awwww thanks for thinking of me.. I hope all is well with you! Call me girl!
You Are Jasmine!
 Independent and adventurous. You don't want much; just to break out of the guilded cage society has put you in and experience life to the fullest. Following orders isn't really one of your strong points, and you would rather live a life of poverty than being forced into something that you hate. Which Disney Princess Are You?
awww Jasmine I luv her...fun quiz thanks Kel*cured a lil of my boredom lol
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[28 Jan 2005|08:26am] |
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"Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness.
Play with abandon. L a u g h. Choose with no regret.
Continue to Learn. Appreciate your friends. Do what you love.
Live as if this is all there is."
~Mary Anne Radmacher~
Gosh I just must be in the quote mood...I just wanted to share this one as well. My friend had it on her e-mail she sent me. Good stuff* And in reply to Steph and Kara FO SHO if there is a class sign my ass up. Shoot we can find a teacher and start our own class. Who knows it could be the beginning to something good...it could be popular I think.
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| Just got home finally... |
[27 Jan 2005|07:03pm] |
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"The first great step is to like yourself enough to pick someone who
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This was from my daily Oprah e-mails..it's so true. I hope one day I will gain that confidence....just wanted to share it with all of you. Luv and miss ya all...Melly
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